Robbie

He makes me laugh every single day. How many people really do that for us daily?  He is witty and questioning. He loves fiercely but that doesn't mean he wont tell you how he sees it. He's emotional like his mom and literal like his dad.  Thoughtful and hilarious.  Loves minecraft, legos,and Halo.

I've watched him teach his little sister to play with the xbox and I've watched him show her how to sneak whatever I just said they couldn't do. I heard him go to his big sister w/ big questions.  He loves his sisters.  He will be the first to blame if there is possibility of getting in trouble but he will be the first to jump in and defend them too.

He wants to learn "to program" like his Daddy.  Loves to sit next to his Dad and play Halo.  He likes the way Daddy makes his eggs and likes to have a little guy time w/ out mom butting in now and then.

He isn't afraid of anyone and he will hug you so you better just accept that.  His giggle is the sweetest sound and his evil laugh means a headache is coming for mom.  He is stubborn, and rules are made for pushing right to the breaking point in his mind.

He buys gifts that are thoughtful and he takes his time picking just the right thing.  He loves giving gifts as much as getting them. 

He talks to himself all the time because there is just so much going on in that head. He likes veggies more then fruit.  He watches all the princess movies with his sisters and cowboy movies with his grandpa.

He is a light in my life. The little boy in the middle. He is the first to test me and the first to hug me. He asked for a bible with all the stories for Christmas.  He comforts me when he sees me cry. He is Robbie and I get to be his Mommy.

I am scared of a world w/o Robbie in it.  I'm scared that no ones hears the cries of these kids and their parents. Scared that I am not able to do enough.  Scared of a world that teases before it loves.

I ask if you read this that you stop and think, who can I tell? I see a world that isn't educated on this condition.. I see a world where change happens because people demand it.  I want to live in a world where the marketing of a drug to save a child's life is more prevalent then one that helps in the bedroom. 

You can help me see a world like that. All we have to do is start talking.